Current Mood: drained
Current Music: beep.....beep.....beep.....beep.....beep.....beep.....beep
So recently I've tasted insomnia. For the last 6 weeks i've been QUITE unable to sleep. averaging 4 hours a night, at the least 2 and most 6.. but 6 hours only happens with the Ambien my doc gave me. Ambien however has been quite trouble some, leading to visual hallusinations (no shit) and headaches.. plus only 3/4 of the sleep it promises... I now have a wonderful 2 month supply of Lunesta, max dosage. Not to mention the doubling of my other scripts... My doc is loving the pills apparently... soon i will too.
over and failed.. First mistake... Taking this girls fake ID out to the Shire (local dumpy bar) watching about 12 troopers roll in and raid the place.. I was ticketed and fined.. Also threatened and watched a dear guy friend of mine get cuffed and warned of the dangers of rape in jail.. haha cops on a power trip are silly. I then proceeded to get entirely shit faced last tuesday (sprained my ankle, bruised my knees and some how damaged my back... i think it was the table in the mail room!) ahhahaha Last Thursday... real drunk again.. my favorite pizza guy said "I haven't seen her this bad in a while" thats all i remember from 1-4 am... oh dear. Then this wednesday Kateri and I proceeded to stay at the townhouses and have a wonderful time with some of our favorite guys... games included.. bull shit pyramid, asshole, Never Have I Ever (BEST GAME!!!!) and strip pong- Yeah they pulled out cameras.
Oh stop making that face....
It would appear I'm back up to my old tricks... I wouldn't say so though... certainly more toned down with a much lighter mood... Its not always partying cause i gotta (I gotta snuff you!!) Its partying cause its fun. Classes are actually a consideration... work gets done.. interviewing for jobs and all... planning ahead even. Yay for progress though not much.
Signs of progression
I took a stand last week and I would say I won.. but we'll see when we get back to school if I feel the need to answer a call at 2 am.. or perhaps it wont even come and I will really and made my point.
Speaking of calls...
last weekend within 12 hours I got calls from Pawlick, Luke and Scott and I hadn't talked to any of them in some time... pretty fuckin freaky. Saw Scott the past few nights.. Ive missed the ESF group... they are MUCH fun. 2 more days till the dorms open back up.. but I really wanna go back today!! It feels like ages since I've been there and even longer since I've seen a lot of people. With Coley spending last week with me we spent a lot of time in my building.. granted downstairs a lot to avoid my infantile roomie.. but still many hours of Harrison time were missed.
How is everyone...
No one ever updates anymore, but its ok cause I really dont read it much anyway... Kristen thanks for the little post a while back (facebook!) It sure did make my day hehe
Aside from my sprained ankel and non sleeping I'm doing ok... I've a bitch of a cold.. we're calling it birdflu.. Family is doin alright.. my dad put our cell phone over massively and has now upped our minutes... wonder how he'll feel when he sees my millions of texts on the bill?? whoops! Mom started working a little while back.. so of course everyone in her path is suffering for it. I battled her a few weeks ago.. only over the phone.. but I won. You can tell by the way she spent the rest of the night and following day crying in her room and toking up. Idiot. Lets just say the convo ended with me saying "Maybe I'll call back later, and maybe you wont be such a psycho bitch" *click* hahaha felt great.. until i found out that nicole is still paying for it..
If I had anything interesting to say.. it'd go here
I went to Boston a few weekends ago to stay with Kateri's brother.. it was SO much fun.. We went to the boston public library... (INCREDIBLE) I would probably get married there... We also wen to the museum of fine arts..... let me just say they had actual picassos and degas there. I pretty much didn't know what to do with myself. Tonight Kateri and I are going to the symphony.. I love things like this.. I dont know why I've missed so much in the past few years... I haven't really expanded my cultural horizons since.... perhaps middle school? 9th grade? When I stopped playing flute... Sadly I think I had other priorities for far too long. Live and learn eh?
You can't touch me.
but you've tried! haha... JULIA & I are living in the Heights!!!!! (cute little on campus appartments) I dont think we have a balcony which makes me wanna weep.. but thats alright.. We have one bedroom and then there are 2 LARGE mommas in the other.. they'll be 21 though.. so that'll be pretty fantastic. Not to mention all my favorite boys are in the same set of appartments.. something I learned much later... hahah... it'll probably be a shit show- but we heart those. 310 baby... whoop whoop! <3
I dont listen to Johnny Cash (well only Hurt)
But I'm walking a line.. a fine one.. I totter back and forth like my drunken mother's emotional state. I'm trying hard to turn my head.. close my eyes.. be distracted... but sometimes even 100 miles isn't enough to make me forget whats been lost. Tell me how you've done it? is it all about replacement? cause i've just not been able to find the right fit.. My fingers dont wrap quite as nicely with anyone elses... Let me know your tricks!!
Silly Rabbit- stop turning tricks.
I've set up DSL for the Allards and right now the Satelite guy is on the roof getting them 155 channels they dont really need. They haven't had TV in 15 years cause they live too far out for most dishes and ALL cable to reach. In the last 24 hours they have joined the 21st century. Congrats Allards.. I award you *most improvment over break* Alright... this entry is getting MUCHHH to long.. considering theres no substance here. I was really just trying to waste time til the TV guy leaves cause I wanna shower.. haha